Life Moving On...
Well! It's been way too long. I mean, I wrote recipes, and they are in my draft folder. I wrote to tell you all what's up, and everything that was going on, and never published it. I was just stuck. This Summer was rough. It's now almost November...and I AM FINALLY getting out of my rut. I felt like every time I wrote something I chocked up. My youngest Sister called this Summer the Summer of Cirumstance. Very true.
As some of you already know this past June was the only real Summer of carefree summer for the kids...before things basically swiftly took a twist of fate.
We went to my Sister and Brother in Law's for my nieces Graduation. It was awesome. Family was there. We all were fortunate to spend time together before things just changed forever.
~Coffee with Sisters~
I look back now to the photos of my Husband and children. My Mother. My Father. Their faces are happy, and in a place that was safe, some of them had suffered great loss before, but none knowing it was coming so close to them. This one below of my Husband and son..means more than you know.
A few days after we went to go see my Mother's younger Brother, Our Uncle, who was suffering from terminal Cancer..wait why does that word get a capital letter? It sure doesn't deserve it. It was a bittersweet visit- I am so grateful that I was able to tell him I loved him and see him one more time.
We packed up and were getting ready to head out. The drive was 6 hours to home. My cell phone rang, and it was My Aunt saying that my Uncle had passed. Her brother. My Father's brother. We all cried, and comforted one another. He was a wonderful man..a kind man with eyes as blue as the sky, and a crinkle to them when he smiled. He was 81, and although he had lived many years we had all hope that he had more time. He was young at heart and a wonderful man.
The departure was not easy, and we made the drive home with me in a bit of a stupor, I didn't help my Husband drive at all, and I usually drive half of the trip. My mind kept drifting to both of my Uncles, one now passed away, and my Mother's Brother holding onto life. I was sad, and angry, and just plain trying to accept it all. We stopped at Red Robin. My Sister and her Husband were on the same route and met us there to eat. We had left our two older sons in Upstate New York, and it was just the little guy with us. We had lots of fries..and lettuce wrapped burgers, she and I did, anyways. After a long drive home we got in late in enough time to pick up our dog at a friends place. We were exhausted, and tucked the little guy in and collapsed. Little did we know that the next time we would open our eyes everything in our world would change.
The phone rang at 5 am. It was a call saying that My Mother in Law had passed away in her sleep. We flew out of bed. We jumped in the car with the little guy and I drove to my Husband's Mother's home. For me to say that this was the most shocking thing of my life is pretty much on point. I can not forget moments of that morning that I wish I could. I can not fathom losing a parent. I can not take away the pain that my Husband has, or that we still have no autopsy report, or Death Certificate She passed away July 2nd. We still do not know what happened. It's crazy. My heart breaks for him.
My Brother in Law and Sister brought the boys home to Pa. Thank God.
We had a Memorial for her, a ' Celebration of Life' we cast balloons and we all tried to comfort one another.
WE are still in shock. We miss her. The Family had a similar Memorial for my Uncle who had passed away the day before her at the end of the Month. At that gathering we received that dreaded call that our NY Uncle had passed. I'm glad we were with my Mom.
July. What a month.
Three wonderful loving people passed.
Loss. How do you get over it?
You just do. I guess it's supposed to get easier. I'm waiting. We all are.
I guess this is me writing this put it not so much behind me, just to move on. The best that I can. Now for normal posts. Thanks for listening <3